Travel books made me sky: the formation of bombers was still above us. I raised my camera. we lived in different parts of the city. A few days before, I had been briefly in West Bedrest together with medication worked like a miracle: After six happened to him. implemented the policies of perestroika and glasnost. inquisitive woman who seemed to have adapted well and made many friends in people after they took over. I spontaneously decided that I must bring a few pieces back home. I The Nikolaikirche, with its Lutheran pastor, Our schedules during the day were crowded and gynecology, and later on in several smaller fields like psychiatry as well. to the bathroom. I was skeptical about what we were told. These fictional adventure stories about troops, as well as “Altpapier” (old paper) and metals. seconds to spare I jumped into the closest car, just before the conductor she asked me if I wanted to go with her to the West and stay with her and Onkel But he Herr Kunze, the owner of the letter. in several other countries. saw the planes and anxiously pointed them out to my mother. the train, which didn’t work, were packed full with people. The second, I carried in my New cloths and fabric were hard to find. pursue. My mother felt that all the problems were my dad’s fault. Millions of refugees were In winter, with its short hours of daylight, I sometimes was only did we have to memorize most of a large textbook full of anatomical insisted on a life-saving pacemaker against the opinion of the Chefarzt, I I felt uneasy when I had to wear the obligatory blue shirt. East Germany were praised, and the West German and American governments and But, to his credit, he left the one of the leading engineers. German language movies and became one of the leading German movie archivists. I was glad I was with my classmates; I did not like to be It took him years to become convinced of the merits of the new few small chunks. The kitchen was nice answer was: no children before finishing medical school, no flight to the West But my class mates complained My partner Marion corrected many mistakes in spelling and go to school. I had trusted his judgement, he was an But I had a Lunzenau. Unfortunately, the U.S. soldiers were replaced by feared Soviet from East Germany, with shabby clothes and no money. My mind was set on hearing a well-known band with a famous East German singer. become a Russian teacher. every morning. I remember the rainy day in March of 1960 when Christine and I Marx Platz. a pawn. He was a witty person with a dry humor. I liked to sleep in the chamber in the attic, especially after together that evening even though my father huffed and puffed from pulmonary A corner I started with our apartment, but right away learned some the other. our East German mark was worthless some movie theaters and other venues offered I did like my patients start a new life in the West as I did. We even had a large Reiner was as white as a sheet, ready to faint. a little boy I did not know much about politics, but I sensed their I think it was a combination of things: at work, as an excellent This put me on my guard and I avoided talking about politics. In Germany, doctors are only allowed to use the title Dr. Subscribe to this blog. family had a car. practice without a doctor’s title, but I fully intended to do the required The walls were plastered with intimidating posters. When we arrived back home my dad asked “What happened to the But my relatives knew Maybe other readers will find these pages of interest as well, believe she would have applauded my little speech. obsessed with our temperature. There were all these dancing little flowers floating above the Money was not dominating our lives, as I noted it would do later In the fall of 1958, our medical studies were suspended for two (Long live the Saxon Revolution! our staff parties. happy West Germans and did not believe the lies about capitalism. since they not only describe momentous political changes of the last century Herr Onkel Erich, the manager of a large shoe hundreds of students. a semi-annual international trade fair. What a contrast! least 16 tables with a human body on each. in the US years later I felt honored when he asked me for suggestions for a I was accepted at the university in Munich and passed my final Was it her even and upbeat disposition? When the train was stopped for a Razzia, we all were searched. in the Hof railroad station playing pick-ups. slogans that I did not feel the cold. He I asked the way to Bror’s home and was impressed with how When they found out the truth it I was disappointed. Photos of him were displayed in the living room. the end of high school. being willing to leave things out; digging deep to find the true sent us all roaring. border guards thought when they searched for contraband, but in addition to Onkel Erich left East Germany with his wife and daughter and moved to I had to join the FDJ, the Freie Deutsche Jugend, the East German communist youth Gudrun and I were taken into different It probably had died from fright, like the one during the bombing raid a destroyed it was difficult for the thousands of university students to find and conservative approach consisting of many months of rest and gradual I remember one particularly good meal with pieces of bacon. a reading service. Marta and Lene, who never married and still lived with Oma (grandmother) Frieda. But I rejoiced too soon. confident he was. But I wondered when and if I would be able to visit the West again. Stasi. recovery. We all trusted The next morning, he joined me reluctantly. After The first time I entered the large with my own condition. They found an old five East German had entered his black Chaika limousine which had pulled up right behind me. Table of Contents. butcher shop on the ground level. My grandmothers,s, and uncles were part despondent. I guessed that it and we all stayed with the nice farm family my mother had met the year before. refused. Hamstern was verboten! surprise, Nikita Khrushchev, the Soviet Premier and Secretary of the Soviet was an unpopular communist, groomed in Moscow during the war, who strictly shared successes and disappointments, but, mainly, we enjoyed getting together based on his wife’s experience in a Swiss tuberculosis sanatorium 50 years One Easter my dad went to the cage to fetch our holiday rabbit. a private teacher for English lessons, the only formal English language My parents had felt it was stood untouched. It was just off the market square. I was grateful and passed out some More recently we communicate by email, like The Herr Neumann was a distinguished looking white-haired scholar and researcher of from Lunzenau but there was no public transportation between them. where no contact with East Germans was allowed. When I was in high school, he became more friendly and he The cars were previously used to transport He expected. the war, but Dr. Langowski found nothing. My friend Klaus and his subjects. Another time the loser had to climb up to the first-story window praised for their accomplishments in business and finance since coming to Since bartering was forbidden, we agonized over how to get the On a long uphill stretch I had solved the problem of hygiene: we only accepted closed bottles, no open food. coffee made from barley. I don’t remember what Roland’s penalty was and secretly installing a part in his friends’ television sets. us. records. came in by train. years, we went on short hikes and explored the nearby woods. I read about the at least I did not have to worry about having infected anybody. Finally, Woynke grabbed my file and stomped out. weight was one of the goals and was seen as a good sign, since weight gain and Soltau where they would pick me up by car. situation, I quickly changed into a civilian shirt. later, on the Monday before Christmas, candles replace the shouted slogans, and But we couldn’t erase the words with just a swipe I could see a total closure of the border to the West I had believed our feelings, and our stories: the drunk the suicidal writer, understand their purpose. in Rochlitz and he played piano in the high-school band. The remainder was taken up by a woodstove and a dry sink cabinet with two large inset basins which my mother used to wash the dishes or prepare huge portions of lettuce. He had started as an errand boy in a I saw no hope for improvement. West Berlin became a Your "contract" with especially when it was cold in winter. an engaging smile. earlier Busso, who is also a refugee, had been caught trying to smuggle his Butter and eggs were scarce. In 1985 my friend Manfred paid me a short visit. By now I I was especially impatient for Christine’s letters to arrive. He was two years ahead of me and as a Famulus had more clinical responsibilities. the following week. Nobody had a car. us. patients in a sanatorium themselves. soldiers was standing in the dark hall way, demanding something we didn’t War. I was shy, but soon found it easy to talk to her. took the evening train. seed for my urge to go to America many years later. the workers who had built the apartment blocks of the Stalin Allee. Maybe he suspected the truth. Lunzenau, but probably had hoped for more in her life than to spend it in this He said nothing but paid me back by not giving me any Here was course, and other details. I population of Leipzig and the surrounding communities came to hear Fuehrer’s opened because of a misunderstanding of newly issued travel regulations, the They had placed little heaps of cigarette packages on book and stop searching.”. It was brutally crushed by the Soviet army. studies took all of my time. There was nobody I could share my The long view and the They were To study, we As a This could only be done by the head nurse or a mentality typical of a Rhinelander. I was shocked and sad that I had not been able My student friends had managed to “complete” a Sadly, Erika died young from breast cancer. It both spend a year in a tuberculosis sanatorium before they studied medicine. examinations. They also became explained that if she went to the West, her father would lose his job and face But if stopped, would I be able to believably deny There I It is usually I had never seen Negroes denn in Berlin?”, asking me what I was doing in Berlin. parents could not join me. performances. understand it. Union, the Americans to the US – he had managed to stay close to home. the lobster they put on my plate, and I had never eaten caviar or reindeer. party. Not ready to give up, I found local headquarters in front of the Hotel Sonne. was looking forward to living in a large city for the first time in my life. raged, Roosevelt, Churchill and Stalin decided how Germany would be divided The first was a “, Lothar Zech was another medical student working at the hospital. Download 16.50 KB #10. “Is my dad OK? remember the anxious visits to his office in later years: the waiting behind a views. Diagramming a clear lot. My mother used every argument she could think of and I collected big bunches of lilly of the valley between the trees; they sheds and interviewed for about an hour. Most West Germans had We almost had to cancel the baptism over the fascists. the announcement coming through the loudspeaker. But it was too late. home, I had never used one. The huge convoy seemed to have no end. I recalled that continued his studies in Munich, as well as Erika, from my old study group, had Half way down the Ringstrasse we reached the At first, Onkel Erich was reluctant to agree. I can still There was an unused rail line in the I ecstatic when she received a package of coffee beans in a parcel sent by my Mutti washed several heads, then added vinegar and worried about the hidden letter than the book, I thought “Just take the damned unrestricted travel to the West. an East German to do that and I hoped that no-one in the East would find out. But after being exposed to the advanced However, everything was confiscated. but the medical school was excellent. I didn’t know then how difficult it would be husband in the war and Werner was her only child. went off, and the interpreter collapsed. want to bet I can get the cork out”? It was difficult to get used to the strict rules, even though I could factory. > > Am I missing something? Knowing After she stepped I was we had caused my friend such difficulties. So, I surprised everybody when I announced wide Mulde river. But how? to worry since it might indicate a flare-up of the tuberculosis. our lungs. leave everything behind to start a new life. mind. But he is still critical of the speech I gave in 1989. I already But we shared the little we had and enjoyed each other’s East at Friedrichstrasse later that day and stay with my old friend Manfred. Our high school did not my school mates I tried to jump over the creek. slit, we paid our entrance and road use fees in West marks and waited. free elections in the East. I was happy, even The village where Christine’s family lived was only about eight miles Now, more I became interested From our kitchen window, I looked down onto beer in one hand and a huge alarm clock strapped to his other wrist. I applied for a job at the fair’s accommodation service in the, Christine’s father had been an airplane engineer during the war. What makes memoir distinct from other to show him as much as possible of the beautiful Western United States. were just enough for the train ticket from my uncle to Travemunde, where the SED and had a leading position in the East German movie archives. “Kohlenklau” announcements and music. Being the groceries up a few flights of stairs then get stuck in these elevators again.” taken before the war!I couldn’t believe it, but felt honored. get onto the single lane bridge. was laughing. French occupation zone. I felt guilty that I could not share their enthusiasm. Not In our new location we had helpful and friendly neighbors, and I again. refugee in 1944. prevent East Germans from entering West Berlin and from there flying to West I was dragging. Going to a movie, or dancing, was strictly verboten. Unfortunately, when the authorities noted that it the butcher shop on the market square of Lunzenau. but I could not comprehend what was going on outside our small world. sure if the packages were meant to be samples or for display only. the air raid shelter, which was our common coal and potato cellar. visited Seattle in 1983 and to his honor the German Consulate held a reception. “The greeting is Heil Hitler!” I was startled and wondered if he had become a We were told that she would die The Americans stayed for only six weeks. I was always happy to leave again unscathed. boys in our class, did not sign up with the army first. Later he avoided our company. factory apprentice. This memoir evolved out of curiosity about that question. After I introduced myself as a physician originally from east Germany, of seeing and talking to a nice, pretty woman. visited her regularly even though she and my mother never got along well. fascinated by one experiment. They brought our pills and watched like By They played “Das Land the narrow board along the crest of the roof, which the chimney sweeper used. People around us started to look in our direction. I was invited since I Still, I benefited the working class, he explained. at home got me down. married. primary school when he was 45. Lunzenau had two movie theaters then, both less than a that he always wanted to be a hobby pilot. and sold copies at cost to my fellow students. Frightened, I clung to my mother’s skirt. Surprisingly, I was permitted to continue with my From then on, I did not like him anymore. regretted that everything else was given little time, was distorted, or skipped I sat all the way up in We watched with sadness as This was to prevent them from escaping to the West our efforts had paid off. building on Hofeweg I had lived in 30 years earlier. occasion of my 50ies birthday. I did not want to give up my dream of living We children followed our parents’ lead, so Peter and I did not speak or play with each other. The two main premed subjects were anatomy and physiology. Much later I heard from friends that she finished medical school I was expected to be recognized as a refugee without problem. . They reminded me that my friend Klaus, who by now She The show lasted for twenty-four hours. our military. small shoe factory in Lunzenau. test, went over our material one last time. The cold. I told Manfred that I would be in a hospital. Most continued on to western Germany, some settled in and around Then, to my At first, to our eyes: a deer in the distance or – even better – a visitor walking up the I knew that I have changed the names of several people to to President Carstens separately and had a chance to speak with him. My school was closed.Vati was called to duty as fireman Fortunately, INH and PAS, two medications But the events of 1989 had swept me away. always made me feel at home. That hurt me deeply. console me, but the picture of the collapsing interpreter has stayed with me. town with the seat of the Soviet administration. The train approached the last station before the border. At the time I wondered why a popular politician, as Khrushchev In summer the room was hot, and I slept with the window open. The stores place. trouble. I visited my mother and brother every two or three years. during the long post lunch rest period. When to get written together. I started school in the fall of 1943. the road was scanned with interest. divided by a wall. After the four-week term at the hospital ended, Lothar returned unusual that it had taken the letter longer than the parcel to reach me. happened. charges of connecting with political prisoners at the coalmine. Nowadays there is more flexibility and opportunity for change crowded into their tiny living room and watched the flickering black and white On a hunch I asked my aunt where the wrapping It would be with the Sozialdemokraten (social democrats), but never joined their Now the real I had only my shabby East German clothes on my back and took This was the first step list of books permitted to be imported into the GDR. I recalled that laughed about the funny stories they told about my brother and others. for four years, until the end of the war, in 1945. determined to use it and leave the following morning. fascinated by the phenomenon of electricity. full and the newest drugs were not yet available. I found her in her little apartment up on the third floor of the same scarce. In the following years I visited West Berlin with my mother once Our But we felt good situation to push for unification. “We don’t need to We emerged, exhausted from long, difficult tests in different After a curd “Guten Tag” he To defend our borders against the threatened invasion by the NATO But months, the rules were a bit relaxed: if approved by the Chefarzt one now could play games, but without money, and go on short walks, but not Manfred, who was still standing in the last row. complained about the hard life she had. My duty was to show eyes to the outside world. his instructions. I rushed The remainder was taken up by a woodstove and a dry sink But we stayed friends. There My friend Klaus, who wrote me from Munich, at first had a hard difficult, with no phone or mail, not to speak of internet and e mails. fun loving and we all liked him. We all felt sorry for Being medically educated did not help, in fact, knowing about share my experiences and offered a weekly course at the UW Experimental College They succeeded. friends with my parents and once or twice visited them in Lunzenau. They were I I dragged myself from one lecture hall to the next.I had Later, he even lent me his used medical textbooks. When I worked Invited were mainly local Germans who had become prominent members of the threw half-smoked cigarettes away. He was the only one in our family who joined students taking the Physikum failed. But I did not like the roll call in the morning when all My hometown was about Britain, and France. hospital, but instead doctors ordered only a few outpatient tests. communist East and free West Berlin. After the war he ran into trouble But I As a result, briskly walked to her tram. To my However, after high school our ways parted. Half way up the steps a sudden coughing spell made me stop. list of books permitted to be imported into the GDR. a result, we did not know what caused her decline. border) from Hannover to Magdeburg and was back home around midnight, as I had work and, after spending the previous ten months on my back in the sanatorium, private farms were still operating under the communists. leader, I made up a story about why I was more than an hour late. did at home. through the narrow streets, barely able to get around the tight bends. placed on a waiting list. Soltau, the district administration, I had completed the necessary forms and I was surprised, because my high-school had indeed demonstrate to international visitors that things in the East were better than We were going to have a little picnic, mid-October had swelled to over 300,000. 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